My glorious Jesus.

What a beautiful picture. To know that we are gods children always being taken care of. We have a wonderful father who's heart desires us. What we know on earth doesn't even begin to reach our knowledge of his love and desire. How incredible!

When Christians here about being like Christ I feel like its almost this impossible idea that we say but very often give up on seaking. But how simple is it so chase the heart of god when he is full of so much love that is never ending. I think one of the simplest ways to become like heist is to simply sit and welcome in his presence. To turn on music worship and just be. Not letting my other thoughts come into play. That's one way I can grow incredibly deaper with my father

Being still is not the only time we can soak in Christs heart. It's when we're moving an life is chaotic. And you manage to get 6free meals in one week as a college student trying to save for a wedding. And you realize how Christ has your back and he is using others to bless you. My desire to love others through the blessings Christ has given me grows.

Sometimes I know people think that the love Christ has for me and hopefully reflects through me is ridiculous and can actually push people away by the fact that they are uncomfortable about it. But I hope I can keep loving them. Though they may push me away I hope that I will always be there when I see opportunity to Bless them.

My God hasn't given me too much love to hide. It's overwhelming to just sit in his presence and be anointed with such glory and grace. What a marvelous God he is. My father... Ya he is amazing. You should get to know him too.

.God's burden.

Well hello blogging world,
Time to blog before I trek into the night for a very long study sesh! Lot's of homework due tomorrow... Today was wonderful! Started out early by going to Seattle with my roommate and visiting Pikes Place where I bought new loose lead tea from my favorite tea shop "World Spice" - I got Peppermint, Chamomile, Raspberry Splash, and a black tea. I had some peppermint tonight and loved it! Following that, we wandered around and I got a few vegetables and a fresh load of sour dough bread that is amazing! Not many of the shops were open that early, so we didn't explore too much. We then found a coffee shop where I had a cis up of Clam Chowder with Warm Pita Bread and a cup of tea to warm up in the rainy weather. Even though I had class and work the rest of the day, this made my day!

Lesson learned about business number one: Invest in a good iron. Or else you'll end up yelling at your $10 one from target at midnight...

 

Thought for the day: I'm finding love again. In daily life. Today's love and grace was the ability to go to pikes this morning and enjoy simple blessings. The other day I found love and grace that burdened and saddened my heart as I saw a handicapped man homeless who's head was almost completely indented on top and misshaped. My heart cried for him. My inspiration was found by God breaking my heart and giving me little blessings and joys. 

Reminds me of this song: "Love" by Clarensau

"I saw love in a hurricane,
Just after the storm,
Running through the rain
And I saw God
On a busy street,
In the face of a lonely man,
Who's wall, it was so thick,
You won't believe

And I found love
I found love

I saw grace,
On a hotel floor
In a girl who's crying now,
Hoping that there's something more
Than the card she's been given,
Than the hole in her heart,
Than the pain in the memories
That Daddy left and caused
But I want to tell her
Oh, she has to know
Oh, I found something bigger;
Something that won't let go

And I found love
That will not leave
That will not leave
Oh, I found love

(Even when I'm hurting,
Even when I'm down,
Your love will never leave me;
I found Love)

And I found love
That will not leave
That will not leave
Oh, I found love

(And even when I cannot stand
On my two feet again,
Your love will never leave me,
Oh, I found love)

And I found love
That will not leave
That will not leave
Oh, I found love

(And even when I find myself
At the end of my rope,
Your love will never leave me,
Oh, I found love)

And I found love
That will not leave
That will not leave
Oh, I found love

(And even when I throw myself
Into a deeper whole,
Your love will never leave me,
Oh, I found love)

And I found love
That will not leave
That will not leave
Oh, I found love

.beautiful wool coat.

I'm excited because I just got the email confirmation that my new wool coat has shipped! =) I got it on sale at Ann Taylor (work)! It's a classic that I think will last me a long time. And from my understanding, people who have had Ann Taylor coats before have said they hold up really well... It's the wool double face belted coat. I would link you to it on the site, but they have sold out of it online!

A fantastic day today. Went to the City Church here in Kirkland and was challenged incredibly by Pastor Chelsea Smith this morning. She challenged us to ask for more then what we deserve. She showed us in scripture where God says all we need to do is ask.Chelsea said that while she was praying for her kids she realized that she was praying for things that put her in the middle... so if she messed up, then her kids wouldn't get what she was asking for. As in, "I pray that I can be a good mom so that my kids can grow up well." She explained that she was putting all that pressure on herself. God showed her that she needed to pray for more then what she deserved for her children. So instead to pray, "God give me children good health." She challenged the entire congregation to do the same thing in our own lives. To pray for more then what we deserve, knowing that God is a faithful and loving father. And be specific. God tells us if we want something, ask. When we pray "God help me to get that job," we are still leaving space for our control and opportunity for ourselves to get in the way. When you ask, "God please give me job xxx with a pay higher then I have at the moment" you are believing that God will do this for you. I took this as a challenge onto myself! I'm excited for the new opportunity to grow...

Goodnight!
Liz Rose

.happy to be.

So today I bought the book, "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. This is the excert from the cover about what it's about:

"A lot of professors give talks titled “The Last Lecture.” Professors are asked to consider their demise and to ruminate on what matters most to them. And while they speak, audiences can’t help but mull the same question: What wisdom would we impart to the world if we knew it was our last chance? If we had to vanish tomorrow, what would we want as our legacy?

When Randy Pausch, a computer science professor at Carnegie Mellon, was asked to give such a lecture, he didn’t have to imagine it as his last, since he had recently been diagnosed with terminal cancer. But the lecture he gave—“Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams”—wasn’t about dying. It was about the importance of overcoming obstacles, of enabling the dreams of others, of seizing every moment (because “time is all you have...and you may find one day that you have less than you think”). It was a summation of everything Randy had come to believe. It was about living.

In this book, Randy Pausch has combined the humor, inspiration and intelligence that made his lecture such a phenomenon and given it an indelible form. It is a book that will be shared for generations to come."

My reasoning behind buying this book? My junior and senior year of high school we talked about giving our last lectures - what legacy did we want to leave? What meant most to us? It was inspired by this book. And even talking about the book inspired me. I decided to dig out my last lecture tonight and review it again. The funny thing is that I probably would not put the same things into my last lecture now, as I did two years ago. What I put in my lecture then was to realize the significance of friends and family, realize the beauty of God's creation, and enjoy the little things. Not that those things don't have significance now, they do - but I've realized that changing what inspires you is only part of maturing.

I look at that video I made two years ago and realize just how much I've grown and learned since then. I have learned so many more life lessons since then that I wouldn't trade for the world - even as tough as some of them are. My world has grown and I see things in a bigger scheme. Intresting to see yourself in the past and realize how much you've grown, how much you've changed.

I'm happy with where I'm at. And I'm excited to read this book!

Goodnight all,
liz rose

.freedom process.

I look back to 2008-2010 and I was extremely inspired by those around me. Everyone had some incredible story that taught me something. It gave me excitement for each day. Joy and compassion. Here I am in 2012 trying to find a source of inspiration when I think what I need to learn/find is inspiration from myself. I want my inspiration  and passion to be sourced to my soul, that's thriving in God's presence. And in return, I want to inspire others.

It's easy to back off and hide thoughts and beliefs because you think that people might consider you radical. Radical in your faith if you raise your hands in chapel or church. Radical in your hope if you are always positive and looking to make the world a better place. Radical meaning extreme, too much, more then necessary, crazy. As embarrassing as it might be to put this thought out in public, I think I lost some of my passion when I started to believe and let people's critical thoughts of "radicals" get to me. Sad in a sense that I am allowing the thoughts of someone else compress my passion and excitement.

I'm needing to be freed from this cage that I've locked myself in. And I'm asking God to free me and take all fear of stepping back out.

A very vulnerable position I put myself in by posting this, but I think this has to do with part of the freedom process. I'll be defeating fear.
Goodnight!
Liz Rose